Sunday, September 30, 2007

Lack of discipline

Hello Transformation Journal readers.

This is Kelly, writing to confess that I am not yet disciplined! :) I realize that i have not posted anything on Exodus since Thursday. I was given the task of keeping up the post while Melanie went off to get married, and I missed a few days. Now, I'm here and ready, but my journal is at home! I will get back into the "rhythm" of things tomorrow. I hope your work with the Transformation Journal is going well. I'm looking forward to becoming a more disciplined...

Kelly

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Justice

Sometimes i get up on my high horse of thinking that the Old Testament is full of dos and don'ts and that it was contextual and does not apply to my life today. I can sometimes even lean as far as to think that my faith could do without the Old Testament and just focus on the New Testament and the teachings of Jesus. Yet, what i read today reminds me that many of Jesus' teachings do stem from Old Testament scripture. And it's a beautiful thing to think about the fact that since the beginning of time God cared for the lost, the left out, and the poor. God has always been and will always be a God of Justice. Jesus came to teach us more about justice through his way of life, and his parables. I want to be more about justice like we read in Exodus.

What struck me, however, is how unnatural justice can be. We are called to return our enemy's donkey to him (Exodus 23:4) and to lift the heavy burden off of those who hate us (v. 5). I'd be happy to return a lost pet to a friend, or help someone i love who is hurting or in trouble. But when i think about the people in my life who have wronged me...the ones who maybe have left me on the side of the road, i have a hard time thinking about being as loving as this scripture encourages. I think that my natural instinct is that justice would be for them to suffer, or feel the pain that i have felt.

I think this is what is so remarkable, and yet so revolutionary about God and the call for each of us in faith. We are asked not to respond with what might "feel" like justice to us, rather to respond with what looks more like justice in the form of love. That's radical. That's Christ-like. That's really hard somedays!

My prayer for this world, especially those of us who are claiming to follow God, is that we would learn to be more loving in our understanding of justice. That we would see justice as God sees justice and love even those who might seem, at first, impossible to love!

May you love like that today!

-Kelly

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

More on Moses

Moses reminds me of a little child in this passage where God speaks from the cloud. He's bit whiny and lazy...actually he kinda reminds me a bit of myself. I have no idea what Mount Sinai must have looked like, or how large it was, but the fact that they continue to reference it in this passage as a mountain was what caught my eye today. That God gives Moses a bunch of instructions to tell the people..."have them be clean, don't let them touch the mountain, let them hear my voice..." But then God calls Moses to the top of the mountain, so after the mountain is covered with smoking fire and shook from a violent earthquake, Moses willingly CLIMBS A MOUNTAIN. Not just takes a small hike up the hill, but climbs a mountain. I imagine he must have been in better shape than i am because he had just made the trek from Egypt to Mount Sinai...eating only manna and quail (a diet i would have for sure tired of after the first week). So he huffs and puffs his way up to the top only to hear God say, "Go back down and tell the people not to touch the mountain!" Really God?! I just got my tired self up here and now you're saying go back down!?

Do you ever feel like Moses? Like you are sacrificing and climbing your mountain in order to please God and then just when you think you are at the top and it's time to rest, you're told to go back down and start the journey over! I'm with moses on this one. Verse 23 of Chapter 19 says, "Moses protested!" Darn right he protested! What a frustrating message to hear. But. That's what follows the protest. But, God... And then, Moses went back down.

One summer i was working for a mission organization, overseeing three mission trip sites in Colorado and Wyoming. It was a hard summer! I felt like I was doing my very best for God and making all kinds of sacrifices for Him. I was exhausted, at the end of my rope, and ready to come to the final week of the summer. I had three very difficult sites that summer with lots of staff issues, and spiritual warfare type stuff. So i was going to end my summer at my easiest site and just coast on home. Then the phone rang!

One of the sites in South Dakota had had a terrible accident and all the staff were in the hospital. They still had one week left of students coming, and there was no one to run the show. So, instead of dropping to my knees and praying for these poor friends who were badly hurt, one of them even in a coma, I threw a temper tantrum with God! I cried, yelled, hollered, threw my fists in the air and blatantly told God that He was asking too much of me! I knew i'd end up going eventually (it was my job and i didn't really have a choice), but before i went, i turned into a whiny little kid and cried my eyes out. I was exhausted. I couldn't do another week, including making an 8 hour drive to South Dakota the next day.

Kelly protested!

But.

But i went anyway. Reluctantly, even begrudgingly. I went with a bad attitude and a broken spirit but i went! And what came of that week is by far one of my most memorable weeks in a three year history with this mission organization! Kids' lives were dramatically changed. My life was dramatically changed.

I say all of this for one reason. I think that both Moses' story and my story show us that God is not a God who expects us to be anything other than what we are. broken. sometimes whiny. lost. hurt. tired. confused. However we are, we are given permission to be real with God. No need to fake a willingness. No reason to fake happiness. No chance at convincing God we are joyful when we're not. God takes us as we are, and uses whatever we are willing to offer. And that, my friends, is Good News!

Happy Wednesday!
kelly

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Bread without Yeast

Ya know the term, "beat a dead horse"? I kinda felt like that's what our scripture did today when it came to the discussion of the passover meal. I was struck by how many times i read the words, "bread without yeast" and how much focus there was on that part of the meal. So much so that if you were an Israelite during the passover time and you snuck a piece of leavened bread, or made something with yeast like wine or bread, you would not only be in trouble, you'd be literally kicked out of the community. "anyone who eats anything made with yeast during this week will be cut off from the community of Israel. These same regulations apply to the foreigners living with you, as if they had been born among you." Exodus 12:19. God was serious about this yeast thing.

Why?

I thought i'd be able to figure that out and write up an incredibly insightful, very moving entry about how God asked the people to be yeast free for these particular, life changing reasons, therefore teaching us something brilliant 2000 years later. But when i looked up yeast and did a little research on it, i basically am left with..."huh"? Why can't they use yeast in their bread? I understand that it changes the structure of the bread, it changes the taste of the bread, but what's the bid deal? Are they forbidden because there is evidence that the ancient Egyptians were the first to use yeast? Did God not want the people to succumb to one of their inventions? Is it because the yeast made the bread more desirable to eat and God wanted them to somehow be reminded of their suffering through the nasty tasting flat bread? Maybe God thought that the yeast was too much of a luxury? Maybe it was all done this way so that they were able to take their unleavened bread on the run with them when they were finally freed and had the ability to bake flat bread and keep the dough for longer than they would with the yeast!

Ultimately, this is one of those things that i am still confused by. God said no more yeast in this festival. not just this year, but always!

And i can't hear that without immediately thinking of Jesus telling the parable of the yeast and how the Kingdom of God is like yeast that works its way through the dough slowly and eventually penetrates the entire batch so that it is all delicious and raised. So, Jesus uses it as if yeast is a good thing. God seems to prevent the people from using it in Egypt, but i can't tell why! Any thoughts...

-kelly

Monday, September 24, 2007

Let My People Go...




I have the African American Spiritual going through my head right now - the cry of the oppressed throughout the ages have clung to this story of Moses freeing the Israelites from slavery in Egypt. As I read this scripture this morning, I couldn't help but think of what is going on right now in Myanmar. Our church sponsored a refugee family from Myanmar this past year, as they and others have suffered under the military regime. I was struck by the images of what news reports said, were 10,000 Buddhist Monks and over 100 nuns who have been marching, trying to bring attention to the plight of the people, and bring about peaceful change for an oppressed people. I hope against hope, as they probably do, that change will happen in a peaceful way. It's my guess that Moses and the Israelites were hoping against hope to be free of slavery. It's an old story, but for people around the world, they are living it right now. The good news in this, is that in the story, we see that God is active and working with the people to bring about good change, to bring new life to them. It has been so, and may it be so today!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Baby Moses

Our text today comes from Exodus 1 -2. The questions that come with it are all about the hard lives of the Israelites during the time of the new king. And yet, what struck me as i read this scripture today was that a nursing mother would put her son in a basket on a river! Hard conditions are one thing...not to downplay the slavery or problems of the people, but life must have been way more intense than our scripture shares if a new mother's best option for her child is to put him in a basket and send him on his way.

A friend of mine just had their first born, a son! I have never been as drawn to a child like I am this little guy. I was there in the hospital on the day he was born, and have had the privilege of watching him double in size in this first three months, and learn new things like laughing and discovering his own fingers and thumb to suck on. What a huge thing! And as i think about this little boy whom i love, that doesn't even belong to me, i cannot imagine what it must have been like for the people of Egypt if the most desirable option would be to send your son down a river in a basket! What faith! What trust in God that he would come through!

A little behind schedule...go figure!

So getting married in less than a week has taken quite a bit of my time, and I didn't get my reflections posted for the past two days. So sorry! Better late than never, here they are:

Friday's reading:
The scriptures spend a lot more time on Jacob than they do Esau. Perhaps that's because we are more like Jacob than Esau. We are more apt to cheat our way into a blessing, to do things that we not are not right, to flee from our wrongdoings, to wrestle with God in the middle of angst-filled nights. We might be Jacobs, but it's Esau I'd rather be. No, we wouldn't want our families to hurt or be dishonest with us, to cheat us out of an inheritance. It would be awful to feel like you've played by the rules, and been cheated by your own mom and brother. Yet over time, Esau didn't let revenge or anger overtake him. He moved on. He made a life for himself - and when he heard that his brother was coming back - after two decades - he ran out to welcome him home. Jacob was right in thinking that Esau might want to kill him - but Esau had long before chosen forgiveness over revenge. May we all live like Esau!

Saturday's reading:
I guess today, I take from Joseph's story the same thing I take from Esau. We can choose to let anger and revenge take hold of our hearts, or we can choose to be free from those chains, and live a life of forgiveness. I am amazed at some of the hurtful things that people can do or say, even to their family - the people they are supposed to love the most. And it can be a challenge to choose a way other than vengence. It takes a lot more strength to love someone than to despise or hate them. It's the harder path, but the better path to take. That's what I need to be remembering these days. It's hard, but it's better.

- Melanie

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Isaac and his blessing

Genesis 26:1-6; 27:1-28:5; Romans 9:1-16

Of Course! of course it just so happens to be the day that it's my turn to blog that we have to stumble upon these verses. I have wrestled with these scriptures since i was a junior or senior in high school. How could a loving God say, "Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated"? How could a story of deceit be a good story? And by all means, how could God lift up Jacob as much as he is lifted up, ie. "Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob" our forefathers, when he was such a cheating, lying deceiver? Do you wrestle with these questions? Clearly we have some villains in these passages. It's almost like a movie where you spend the entire time wondering who you should like! Esau is the victim at the beginning but he turns so hateful and wretched it's hard to side with him. Rebekah is some sort of dysfunctional mother who clearly favors one son at the expense and loss of another. Jacob must not have much of a moral compass at that point since he is unwilling to turn away the proposal of his mom. And even sweet, old Isaac is slightly irritating that he can't figure out the situation...He even says something about it being Jacob's voice buy Esau's hairy feel. Come on, dad...can you really be that easily fooled! Seriously, who is likable in this scripture!

For the years that i have wrestled with these passages, i have come to only one conclusion that i can sit with. I can't focus on the underdog, Esau because then life just seems unfair. But as we read in Romans 9 we are told that God was not being unfair because he said from the beginning with Moses, "i will show mercy to anyone i choose and i will show compassion to anyone i choose." Really??!! I don't really get it, but ok! And this is why i'm ok with it: If i were God, I think i would have been ticked at the conniving little punk in Jacob. I would have felt sorry for clueless Esau and maybe even thrown a goat in his path a bit sooner in the story so he could have foiled the plan. But luckily for all, i'm not God. I don't even come close! I'll never claim to understand God, and i think we're created that way on purpose. But from all i have learned, God claims to work all things for GOOD! maybe not always my human and finite definition of "good," but good according to God. And as frustrating as it may be for me some days that i can't understand that, i'm learning to rest in the truth that God is good, and that God is full of grace and mercy. And that no matter how much it may not seem that way to me at times, history (both mine and that of Scripture) proves it to be true. Jacob goes on to be an incredible leader and figure in our religious history. Maybe Esau would have mucked everything up! It's when i think i have the right answer that i am reminded that God knows so much more than me and my responsibility is not to know, but to trust!

So, maybe you are at a place today that makes you think God is being unfair...Maybe you've just had an Esau moment at work or school, or an Esau week, maybe even some Esau years. I pray that we can all find ways to quit asking the "why" questions and wanting the "answers" and focus more on learning to trust!

Blessings on your Thursday,
Kelly

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Blessed and a blessing

I just realized we are off a day - that the journal starts with Sunday, not Monday! So I'm going to skip reflecting on Noah (sorry, Noah) and jump to Abraham to catch up. I like these readings about being in a covenant with God, especially as I prepare to make a covenant before God in just over a week. A covenant is a big deal - it's not a hand shake or a "cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye" sort of promise. It's much more serious than that. It's something holy, that we go into with the utmost awareness of what the covenant might require of us. Abraham, in this covenant with God, is promised land, lots of kids, and a nation. In return, Abraham has to trust and follow God.

I've always been curious about Gods' appearances to Abraham. I'm wondering what it looked/felt like. Did Abraham get the burning bush like Moses? Or something equally as random? I also find it interesting that in Genesis 17 - it's Abraham who laughs at God's pronouncement that Sarah will have a baby. We usually think of Sarah being the one who laughed at the absurdity of having a child so late in life (Genesis 18) - but Abraham did as well.

Even when we try to trust God and discover what God would have us do, it's good to know that we can give a full, hearty laugh towards the extraordinary things God might have in store for us. But then we move beyond the laugh and do what we have to, to make it happen!

-Melanie

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

The Story Retold. The Fall

For some reason reading Genesis 2-3 this time felt like it was the first time i've read it. The story was alive in my mind and I was facinated by pieces of the story that i had never really thought about before. I ponder the question about how God said that if Adam and Eve ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil they will surely die! Did God really intend, then, in creating Adam and Eve that they would live forever? Would there really have been no death for them had they never chosen to eat that fruit? And the serpent's curse was that he would grovel and crawl on his belly...is there a chance that the serpent wasn't a slithering animal before he convinced Adam and Eve to betray their trust in God? I wish i could have been there to see it all! What a world they existed in when they were first created!

And yet as i think about the Garden, I think about how peaceful and wonderful it must have been before "The Fall". Creation. The way God intended for creation to be. Is that what we are supposed to be pursuing in this life? Is it possible that all of the Bible's talk about "The Kingdom of God" is ultimately to help us get back to that wonderful world called "The Garden"? Maybe Jesus' stories about sacrifice and humility and love and putting others before yourself are all clues on how we could live more like God intended us to live in the first place. Maybe we're supposed to be getting more out of Christ's stories about the "Kingdom of Heaven" that pertains to the way we live our lives here and now, rather than seeing them as how life will be for "Christians" after death! Maybe our goal should be to get back to that incredibly alive, beautifully peaceful, good Garden. How do we get there? What is it that Jesus tells us about the Kingdom of Heaven? What needs to change in me if i am supposed to be growing toward that goal? What about you?

Monday, September 17, 2007

We begin!


The first post in a year-long conversation on scripture, faith, and how it's relevant in our lives, begins today! We begin with Genesis and end up at Revelation, using the Transformation Journal.

In these introductory verses, the very beginning of our sacred texts, we hear a story of explanation for how the world came to be and how humans came to relate to one another they way they do. I'm not particularly interested in debating whether the world was created in 6 days, 144 hours, or 8840 minutes, or if this is a story told orally for many years to help people make sense of their existence. I tend to think this is a sacred story meant to give us insight into who our Creator is and to better understand how we live and interact and understand this Creator.

The first question in the Transformation Journal is: What does it mean to be created in God's image? The New Interpreter's Study Bible outlines several answers to this question throughout history. The first understanding was outlined by Augustine, stating that the image of God in human beings referred to the rational soul, placed by God in the human body, which was created out of the ground. Throughout the centuries, being created in the image of God has shifted to referring to the sanctity and innate worth of all human beings, suggesting that all people be treated with equal dignity. Another interpretation is that human beings, created in God's image, are given the responsibility to care for what God has created. This challenges us to look at the ways we care for our own bodies, the earth, and all that is in it.

Today, as I read, I'm struck by the rhythm of the text, and how after each creation, God saw that it was good. I think this text encourages our own sense of creativity, and seeing the good in it. It also reminds us that creativity and creation are good - but that we are not to overwork and overdo it. God took sabbath time, a seventh day, to rest and bless the work. Good took rest. We need to take rest! To see the good in what we do, to bless it, and to rest the good creations that we are!